Tuesday, January 15, 2008

ANOTHER Day at the Hill

We went to Lloydminster last weekend to visit my cousin and her husband and their two kids. For safety purposes I won't use the kid's names... but I'll show pictures! :)
We (the adults who didn't have to work) decided to take the kids for a little sledding trip Saturday afternoon/evening.

The kids had it pretty easy. :)





The snow Princess.










Kurt is a big softie... of course, her little legs might not have made it up the hill. :)








Derek and his daughter... blurry because they were going so fast.








I can't even curl my tongue - she was trying to show me how. :)








Yes... Kurt is a risk taker. Crazy man....









The conquerors of the hill!









The sledding crew... adventurous bunch, no?









One last ride before heading home... Kurt talked him into it. :)








The kids seemed to have a fun time... still cheerful looking even at the end of the day.








The love of my life... showing his age and exhaustion. ;-D (chuckle)





Thanks again for the great time, you guys... we'll do it again soon! :)

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Our Day at the Hill

We (along with Kiley and Jessica) joined our friends Graham and Chelsea and their church group for a couples retreat last weekend at Elk Ridge resort in norther Saskatchewan.
We had an amazing time! One (just one!) of the highlights was tearing down the massive sledding hill just beside the golf course.
The resort supplied inner tubes - and - as you can see - the group supplied the creativity in use. Some pictures of our day:

Only one of the many pile-up ways to go down the hill. That is Jessica on the top of the pile.

Kurt is the blue toque in the middle. Graham is the guy in the gray coat (with no toque) looking at me.

There he is! :)

The end result - the tube kept going and they all bounced off. Very funny to watch from the top of the hill. :)

Kiley, Kurt, and Jessica heading back up the hill. They were really far away - our camera has amazing zoom!

Ahhh... young and in love in a winter wonderland. As you can tell, it was pretty warm out that day (no mitts, no toque).

Proving my love for Kurt... (I wasn't even wearing ski pants!) ;)

Kurt coming back up the hill after one of the "group" episodes.
Yes - they were all on the tube.


The love of my life about to hurtle down the hill...

There he goes...

And up the hill - AGAIN.

True perspective on how big the hill really is.
End result: lots of tired people at the bible study after supper. :)
Thanks for inviting us, guys! And to all the couples from Erindale Alliance - we can't wait until next year! :)

Monday, January 7, 2008

Relationship Advice

Thanks to Jaime for passing this one on... my comments in bold...

HOW DO YOU DECIDE WHO TO MARRY? (written by kids)

You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like, if you like
sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the
chips and dip coming. -- Alan, age 10
LOL! I think this little guy grew up with a supermom!

No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to marry.
God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who you're
stuck with . -- Kristen, age 10

WHAT IS THE RIGHT AGE TO GET MARRIED?
Twenty-three is the best age because
you know the person FOREVER by then. -- Camille, age 10

HOW CAN A STRANGER TELL IF TWO PEOPLE ARE MARRIED?
You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the
same kids. -- Derrick, age 8

WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR MOM AND DAD HAVE IN COMMON?
Both don't want any more kids. -- Lori, age 8

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE?
Dates are for having fun, and people should use them to get to know each
other. Even boys have something to say if you listen long enough. -- Lynnette, age 8

On the first date, they just tell each other lies and that usually gets
them interested enough to go for a second date. -- Martin, age 10

WHAT WOULD YOU DO ON A FIRST DATE THAT WAS TURNING SOUR?

I'd run home and play dead. The next day I would call all the newspapers
and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns. -- Craig, age 9
Now that is creative!


WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?

When they're rich. -- Pam, age 7
Amen Pam! (chuckle)

The law says you have to be eighteen, so I wouldn't want to mess with that. -- Curt, age 7

The rule goes like this: If you kiss someone, then you should marry them
and have kids with them. It's the right thing to do. -- Howard, age 8
Hey - that's what I did... :)

IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED?
It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need someone to
clean up after them. -- Anita, age 9

HOW WOULD THE WORLD BE DIFFERENT IF PEOPLE DIDN'T GET MARRIED?
There sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn't there? - - Kelvin, age 8

HOW WOULD YOU MAKE A MARRIAGE WORK?
Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a dump truck. -- Ricky, age 10
I'll have to ask Kurt if he ever loves me even when I look like a dump truck. :)

An Echo of My Heart

This clip was sent to me by my new friend, Katrina. I've watched it a "few" times... each time with tears running down my face. What a blessing to hear such depth of truth from a young man whose heart is hurting! I hope the Lord uses it to bless you as much as He used it to bless Kurt and I. Tears and smiles... what an amazing combination! :) Logan (the little boy) says everything I could wish to say to others in their pain. Please let me know what you think. :)

I also have to send out a huge thank you to some people who have recently written me emails through the blog link: Roberta, Kim, the Fannons, and - of course - Katrina. All of your letters have meant so much to us. I'll write each of you back soon... this is just in case it takes a little longer than I expect - so you know we got them. Thank you for reaching out to us - words don't feel like enough - but for now that will have to suffice. :)


Have a good evening, everyone.

PS: I've added music to my blog! You can pause it for the video - or if you don't want music in general. :) But I do hope you enjoy it!

Christmas Thoughts (Part II)

And so I'm back!
Sorry for the huge delay. I cannot believe (truly) that we are a full week into 2008... and am still habitually writing '2007' on anything requiring a date. Fortunately, the blog does that for me. ;) I usually get used to writing it faster if I'm at school (dating notes) or working (charting). Since neither is part of my life at the moment, I'll hack along as best I can.
I hope that everyone else has had a wonderful Christmas and New Year. When people ask me how mine was, I simply reply, "I'm glad that it's over." It wasn't that spending time with family and friends wasn't wonderful (because it was!) but the overall feeling of missing someone was a little bit unexpected - even as it wasn't. What a bunch of enigmas and contradictions my emotions have become!
We started Christmas (as has been noted in earlier posts) way back on December 15th in Melfort... opening stockings, and exchanging gifts and learning that Dean has a unique talent for playing Balderdash. And how. ;) I laughed so hard that it didn't even matter that I lost (barely!) to Amanda. ;-D
Lori also makes each of us a pair of PJ pants to get us through the year... Care Bear robe was also a gift. Kurt noted that they are Grumpy Bear's on the robe and stated how appropriate that is for mornings. So I punched him. (lol!) Just kidding... I settled for sticking my tongue out at him. The picture indicates that we worked things out eventually. ;)
Oscar also bonded with Josie since she will actually play with him instead of growling and running away (like a certain unnamed pug). Dean took this picture of them enjoying some bones in the office.
When she wants to get rowdy, she darts around like a little hummingbird and Oscar goes into fits trying to catch her. It's pretty cute to watch - and it tires them both out so that works for all the humans pretty well, too. :)
After that we ended up at home for Christmas morning. Kurt gave me a beautiful card and the letter (also previously blogged about) and "finished" a gift he started 4 years ago.
What, may you ask, has taken four years? He bought me heart locket in our first year of marriage. Two years later, he got it engraved "But you exceed them all" (Proverbs 31). This year, he made the effort to get two little pictures of us and put them in the locket. And so it is done! :) There is also something in the mail that has yet to arrive for me... I've no clue what it is - which is somewhat strange for me and good for Kurt. We'll see if he can maintain the secrecy until it arrives...
I wanted to make a little bit of effort with his gift. I've received a number of sentimental gifts about Autumn... but he doesn't have much for himself. I got him a key chain engraved with the words "Autumn's Daddy" and then sent him on a treasure hunt for his next gift: a ring with her name and birth date engraved inside. He had to go all over the house (including the front closet in his coat pocket) where there were other clues waiting - including a 'task' of singing You are my Sunshine to me and giving me a 'romantic' kiss - or maybe two. A lady doesn't give too many details... chuckle and tsk, tsk. ;-D He was a good sport about it, and he really really liked the ring - which made my heart so happy.
We went to Melfort for the evening, and then to Leask Boxing Day (another stat holiday) morning for our Podhordeski Christmas with Dad and Mom and Kiley and Jessica and Grandma and Grandpa White. We also had a good visit with Baba and Gydo... and Oscar enjoyed the Twins (Diesel and Titan) - even though Titan always steals his blanket. :)
Overall, it wasn't too hectic of a season - for which I am very grateful. I was able to cry when I needed - but the support was also there for both of us. I can't believe it was two weeks ago already! One more indication that time and life go on... and a proof that God continues to carry us through the days and weeks with kindness and mercy.
I went to WalMart January 3rd to get a calender. I usually like to go on the 2nd before they all get picked over - and by the 3rd there weren't that many left. Talk about living dangerously. A calender isn't something you can choose lightly - it hangs there for an entire year so it better be pretty! After some frantic searching, I was able to find one I like - and at a super-sale price. So it all worked out despite my trauma. :)
Hope you have your calenders. :) Happy New Year, everyone!

Friday, January 4, 2008

Until Sunday...

I meant to put up a post this week... but it just got away from me and now I won't be able to post until Sunday night at the earliest... sorry to my mom. :)
Have a good weekend, everyone!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

"A Letter From Your Daddy"


I debated putting this up on the blog - but I've decided to after all.
So many of my thoughts have been revealed to people... my griefs, fears, angers... but there is another person grieving Autumn more than anyone else - and that is my husband.
I - as I have mentioned before - am making a scrapbook to commemorate the day we had with Autumn as well as the events leading up to her birth. Since journaling is the most important part of memory keeping, I asked Kurt if he would be willing to write something out for me. He said yes - but I left it at that - not wanting to pressure him since it was sure to be an emotional experience.
Christmas morning, he gave me a card with some wonderful words (made me cry) and a letter inside that was simply labeled, "Something for the scrapbook."

I'm going to put it in the blog for 4 reasons:
1) It shows how much Kurt loves his baby girl.
2) It reveals to those who read this that our grief truly is shared.
3) He said it was my letter to do with as I wish. :)
4) I believe it honors him and shows his Christlike gentleness. He is truly my "chief among ten-thousand" and I am so humbled to walk on this earth beside him... I want others to know how I feel about him.

I love you, Kurt - and I hardly remember a time that I didn't. My love for you as as much a part of me as my own name... and I'm so thankful God choose you for me. The letter you wrote for Autumn (and me) exceeded my expectations and delighted me even as it brought tears to my eyes. There is no one else on earth I would rather share this life with it's highs and lows with than you. And that is the truth.
Thank you for being a faithful friend, a compassionate, loving and gentle husband, and a daddy to our daughter. I pray the Lord gives me enough years to show you how crazy-in-love I am with you.
Your Kendall xxxooo

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December 24,2007

A Letter from Your Daddy

Dear Autumn,
This letter is very hard for me to write to you, not because I do not know what to say, but because I know you will never be able to read it. In so many ways you were our dream come true, the fulfillment of our unspoken expectations
… a beautiful baby girl. With your soft dark hair, your chubby cheeks, your button nose, the detailed lines on your hands … you were all together lovely in both your mommy’s and my sight. You were perfect, sweetie. As each day drew us closer to your birth date, our anticipation grew and our preparedness became more visible. Your nursery, with crib, bassinet and change table was assembled … blankets, diapers, and wipes filled the drawers … we had your coming home outfit pick out (you were going to dressed up in white while being wrapped up in blankets that your Nana and Gramma made for you) … and most important of all, your mommy and daddy’s hearts had grown bigger so that when you came, you wouldn’t take away the love between your mommy and daddy but that you would be added into our love. We were so ready for you, Autumn, except that God took you before we even knew you. Coming to the realization that no matter how long we wait, we will never hear your loud hungry cries or see your beautiful eyes look up, has been really hard on both your mommy and I. The mornings when I wake up and sit in the brown chair with Oscar (you would have really liked him) is when I remember you the most, because that would have been daddy and Autumn’s time together. I miss you so much, my little girl. And before I finish, I just wanted you to know, that even in your death, I tried my best to take care of you … cutting your umbilical cord, kissing your soft cheeks, changing your full diaper, handing you gently back to the nurse, and making sure you were let down carefully into your grave. I am so thankful to God that He gave you to us for nine months … I only wish that it wasn’t just for nine months. I love you sweetie,

Love Always,

Your Daddy xxxx oooo