Hear Ye, Hear Ye!

*Force yourself to ignore the new counter at the top of my blog and read the rest of my update... (if you must - the update relating to it is the 5th one)* :-D

1) I learned to play "Rockstar". Not as a drummer, guitar player or bass player. I sang. I got 99% on my second song: Danni California by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. I was pretty proud of myself. Proud enough to put it on my blog, anyway. :)

2) I did that the weekend before last when we went with a bunch of friends up to Elk Ridge (same place we were in January) for a many-persons celebratory "30th year" weekend. To quote Cherie, "The best part was the food." But the company, the laughs and the games (even our 2-hour game of Bonanza) were great too. :)

3) I've stated that we've sold our house and are moving - some have asked, "Where?" Ahhh... details. I've been waiting for them to work out. So here is the scoop: We're relocating to Leask - home turf for me... and small enough that anyone who was stalking me would be instantly found out! (lol) My grandparents are downsizing, and we wanted to take advantage of the huge housing boom in Saskatoon and sell - so it worked out very nicely. Lately, a lot of our time has been taken up with shopping for carpets/flooring, paints, counter tops, doors, etc. in order to do the renovations out there. Today, actually, we went to Melfort - because one of the companies we wanted to deal with in Saskatoon couldn't get anyone to come out and install it for us. The Melfort company (family owned!) did amazing for price - and the lady was also very patient with us as we looked at sample after sample... but came to decisions. So one hurdle - and a pretty major one - passed. The people buying our place take possession on June 16th, and we take possession of the house in Leask on May 1st - so we have a month-and-a-half to renovate, move, clean this place and get out there. The goal is sanity. Here's hoping...

4) With much soul-searching and talking to Kurt and others I decided that I won't be returning to work on postpartum before we move. There was a huge part of me that wanted to... and then another part had to be realistic of all that would be required of me there. I couldn't begin to count the number of patients who asked me if I had children, and if so how many... and I am not ready to face that yet- let alone bathing and cuddling babies. I love postpartum because it is such a joyful place - not to mention my coworkers who I love... but it just isn't time yet. So I talked to my manager the other day and told her my decision - I almost felt a physical weight off my shoulders when she said, "I think that is the right decision for you." (Thank you, Nancy!) I'll still stay on the casual list - but we'll just wait to see how the future unfolds as to when I'll be 'ready'.

5) And part of that unfolding: For all those who knew - and have asked me "When are you going to put it on the blog???" - this one is for you:

God has answered our prayers: I'm pregnant again. :)

What a gamut of emotions... and that is such an understatement. We're thrilled - and yet cautious. :) That is all I'll say for now - but I'm sure I'll explore this more as the days go by. And the blog silence has been half because I've been so exhausted (waaaay more than I was with Autumn) and half because I tend to blog what I've been thinking about... and we were trying to keep a secret for a few weeks. (chuckle) What a relief! I really have been emotional, and hormonal (probably those two are tied up together) and have missed being able to put my thoughts out there. Funny, huh?

We found out March 4th - and that puts me at just over 9 weeks. We're not waiting until the second trimester to tell for 2 reasons: I won't feel any more secure about this pregnancy at 12 weeks than I will at 38 weeks. If I lost this child at any point, I'd grieve intensely... and that leads to the second reason: We can use the prayers. :) For baby's safety, for our peace of mind, and for a trust in this same God who has gotten us to this point. I'd rather have people knowing and praying than finding out after the fact. The truth is that we did have to give "bad news" when Autumn died... and it was awful, but we got through it. I think I just need the support more at this point in time. :)

The funny (and not exactly ha-ha funny) part is that although the due date is November 7th - a 38 week induction would place us at October 24th... with the new baby (Lord willing!) being born on our anniversary or the one-year anniversary of the day we buried Autumn. Like I said - gamut of emotions.

Oh - and one more thing - I'll put up a 3D-development ticker when the baby gets a little more "human" looking. I checked it out - and the baby at 9 weeks kinda looks like a seahorse. (chuckle)

So there it is - surprise! :) Thank you everyone who has been praying for us in this regard - for your love and (especially for those of you who already know) excitement. Blessings for now!

kendall